I wish I had done more

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Everyday as I wake up at dawn
My mind starts working the moment I yawn
There were many things to do, o dear!
That’s why I hastily did my Subuh prayer
I didn’t have the time to sit longer to praise the lord
To me rushing out after prayer is nothing odd.

Since school I had been busy every minute
Completing my tutorials and handing it in
My studies took up most of my time always
Minimum time did I have to Allah to pray
Too many things to do, and zikir is rare,
For Allah, I really had no time to spare.

When I grew up and started my degree
Studying all day to secure my future
When I reached home,
I prefer to have fun,I chatted on the phone, on the yahoo messenger,
But I didn’t read much the book of heart, the Quran,
I spent too much time surfing the internet,
Sad to say my faith was falling flat.

The only time I have left is weekends
During which I prefer window shopping with friends
Or better yet I prefer to sit back and enjoy my cds and dvds
I couldn’t spare time to go to usrahs and daurahs
I’m too BUSY that’s my BIG EXCUSE…

I did my five prayers, but did so quickly,
After prayer, I didn’t sit longer to reflect quietly
I didn’t have time to help the needy ones
I was loaded with works as my precious time runs.

My life was already full of stress,
So I didn’t counsel as Muslim in distress
,I didn’t spent much time with muslims that can advice me,
Because I thought, doing so wont help me much,
It will be just a waste of time.
No time to share, with none Muslim about Islam;
Or even to my other fellow muslims who have rights on me,
Even though I know, inviting causes no harm
No time to do sunnah prayers at all
All this contribute to my iman fall…

I’m busy here, I’m busy there,
I have no time at all, that’s all I care
I went for religious lesson, just once in a while
Well, at least I do some, my nafs whispers,
Coz I’m too busy making a pile.

I worked all day,
I slept all night
Too tired for tahajjud, and it seems no right
To me, studying as a living was already tough
So, I only did basic deeds but that’s not enough.

No time at all, to admire God’s creation
No time to praise Allah, and seek His Compassion
Although I know how short is my life,
For Islam, I really didn’t strive.

Finally the day comes, when the Lord calls for me
And I stood before Him with life history
I feel so guilty because I should have prayed moreI
should have invited other muslims to Allah
causeI should strive more to learn about my deen,
Isn’t that what a Muslim live for

To thank Allah and do more good deeds
And the Quran is for us to read.
Now, at JUDGMENT DAY,
I’m starting to fret,
I wasted my life but it’s too late to regret,
My entry to paradise depend on my good behavior,
But I have not done enough, nor did proper prayer

My “good deed book” is given from my right
An angle opens my “book” and read out my plight.
Then the angle chided me“O You Muslim servant,
you are the oneWho is given enough time,
yet not much is done
Do you know your faith is loose?
Saying “no time” is only an excuse.
Your “good deed book” should be filled up more
With all the good work you stood up for…

Hence I only recorded those little good deeds
As I say this, I know your eyes will mist
I was about to write even more, you see…
But I did not have the TIME to list”…

~ i wish i have done more~

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